Love and Inspiration

Ok, so I had to run out on my last post but it was probably a good thing since I noticed a negative ending and I dont want that. I try so hard to stay positive and see that "everything happens for a reason". Me, like most, hit those points in our lives where "a reason" doesn't make any fucking sense at all. I'm sure it does in whoever "your God's"eyes are but my God and I, are having difficulties understanding each other. I have made this blog to be "not about me" because it's not in so many ways, however in a small portion it is, I guess. Meaning, bottom line, I love my sister more then she probably knows or more then I have ever been able to tell her in plain english and she is and always will be my true inspiration, hero, warrior and so many other things that you see in people that may not even be related to you but only dream about. To see her going through this "fight for life" and know she's crying behind closed door's because she doesn't want us to see her pain is something that nobody should ever have to do, especially someone you love so very much. I know everyone has lost someone in their life, we lost many family members already, our dad in 1984, gramma's, uncles, aunts, cousins and many dear friends. Am I having a hard fucking time with all this, fuck yes, I am, BUT, I do understand and agree with my sisters decisions on how and why she is guiding her life. Every moment of every day, I pray for you and my family to be well and carry the strength that we all need to be able to see our "Golden Sunset" every precious day.

Note to my precious sister Patty:


Sissy, I will be strong for you, I will be here for you. You have my whole heart and being and all you need to help you in every way possible if you will allow me. I know you are strong, free-spirited and can take on the galaxy when you have to and I will never stand in your way but want you to know that when you need a shoulder, strength, hope and love, I am always here, by your side and will NEVER leave you.

I love you, 
Your baby sister, Teresa